MoonlightsFoxes

Hey.. I know I haven't been posting much, and it's because of school. I have midterms next week (Edit: 12/18/17 I finished midterms on 12/15/17). But.. That's not the reason for this. My point for making this is to talk about my recent.. Depression. I am having an in-real-life situation. I do not wish to talk about it here. I will only talk about it to close friends and my mother. Last week, I had a mental breakdown. I just broke down in lunch. I put my head down so no one would notice, but one kid did, he told a few of his friends, and a boy came up to me and asked if I was okay. I turned my head to the side, my hood still covering my face, and nodded. He asked if I was sure. I nodded and said a quick "yep.". I made my friend feel bad because she thought she did something. She said "I think *my name* hates me now" as a joke in art class. I was so overwhelmed with my problem that day, that the littlest things upset me. All of my art recently, in real life art, as I have not drawn online for a little while because of school, has all been vent arts in one way or another. I am still worked up about it. I only talk to my close friends about it. I felt, and still feel, useless, hateful, unwanted, like a piece of trash. I'm happy sometimes, then I just think about the situation, and get really.. I.. Feel that it's my fault. It's all my fault. I shouldn't even be telling anyone this. It's all my fault. It will always be my fault. It's my fault. Mine. All mine. 

I know you're going to say "It's not.!". I know you mean well, and I think deep down I know it's not my fault, but I still.. The situation from what the person who made me feel this way, it makes me feel like it's my fault. 

I can really relate to this song right now; 
I hope I don't worry you too much... I'm sorry..

I now have a youtube channel! Whoo! I will upload speedpaints and gameplays here, mostly speedpaints though, please do subscribe! Here's the link! 
www.youtube.com/channel/UCYvV-… just click that and you'll be sent to my youtube channel <3

Now for group discord, I've had discord for a while now,I did the whole discord meme thing, and a few people joined but not alot, so that's why i'm also putting that here, so ye. Join c:
Here's the link!
discord.gg/HTnZCsy

Love is when your heart gets thumping
Gets you all flustered

Love is when your around that certain someone you get all the symptoms
Flustered
Thumping heart
You never know what to say or how to say it

Love isn't a sickness
Love is when your love someone so much you would do anything for them
Love is when if that certain someone doesn't love you back, but loves you like a friend, you just sit there
You sit there and you think
You think about your next move
Love is like a game of chess
You move to one space l
Then another
And another
But no matter what space you're in
You keep loving
Even if that certain someone, just wants to be friends

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